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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 00:13

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I waited trembling.

But ive been too sick for many years..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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What did i know ?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She married twice! .

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But it wasn’t much.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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We were not on the streets..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Do humans know everything they need to know?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I will be 64.

Put me off passion for life!!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I think the readers, may guess!

She loved him until the end.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I couldn’t, believe it.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

She was in good health!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Im still living with it.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I write beautiful poetry .

When she asked me how she looked .

I was seconnd youngest,

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I was scared of men, in general

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I could never make a relationship work though!

She found it foreign!.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

We all went to grammer schools

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I don,t even have a pension.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

All the time i was locked up.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He knew the spot.

So, i spoilt her more .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I have no regrets .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But, we were locked up after school.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

This is soul school!.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She wouldn,t have been !

I never cut or harmed myself..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Especially a lifetime of it.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As i do to all so called friends.?

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

My life is so biszare .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My family never makes their pension either.

One cannot live in the past .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And i lived it daily.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Who then, do I blame.?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Was to survive, this bastard.

Comes on , in middle age.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

It was going to be , some day.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Im dying but, im not bitter.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I was very sick at this time too.

So whats the point in blame.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I was 9 years of age.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Why did i forgive my father ?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Ive learnt so much.

Would this be the day?

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I said to her

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But im dying ,and its too late for me.